Crazy Is My Superpower
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Crazy Is My Superpower by A. J. Mendez | Audiobook Review

By A. J. Mendez

Narrated by A. J. Mendez

🎧 8 hours and 11 minutes 📘 Random House Audio 📅 April 4, 2017 🌐 English

About This Audiobook

NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER WWE superstar AJ Lee candidly shares her lifelong struggle with bipolar disorder and how embracing her diagnosis gave her the confidence to take back control of her life.

“Crazy Is My Superpower is at once breathtakingly honest, hilariously funny, self-deprecating, and incredibly inspiring.” - Julie Klam, New York Times bestselling author of Friendkeeping

Everything I was told should be my greatest insecurities and weaknesses, everything that I’ve been labeled - SHORT, NERDY, SKINNY, WEAK, IMPULSIVE, UGLY, TOMBOY, POOR, REBEL, LOUD, FREAK, CRAZY - turned out to be my greatest strengths. I didn’t become successful in spite of them. I became successful because of them.

Growing up AJ was a quiet girl trying to act “normal” when she felt anything but. As her family struggled with drug addiction, poverty, and mental illness, she found escape through comic books and video games, and inspiration in tough, unconventional female characters. It wasn’t until she discovered pro wrestling that she learned superheroes could be real.

Determined to become the superhero she’d always admired, AJ trained and sacrificed for years to achieve her dream of wrestling professionally. Yet she quickly faced industry pressure to play the role of the damsel in distress and to dress more provocatively to cater to male fans. But she fought back and created an ass-kicking alter ego that was a genuine representation of herself: nerdy, enthusiastic, and a little bit crazy.

With humor and tremendous heart, AJ opens up about her harrowing struggle to understand her demons. What most people view as a hardship, AJ embraced as inspira­tion for her superhero persona, shattering the stigma attached to mental illness.

Charting her journey from a scrappy girl in an unstable home to an empowered wrestling champion, Crazy Is My Superpower is an un­flinchingly honest story and brave confessional about her long road to self-acceptance.

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Eight hours and eleven minutes is what A. J. Mendez needs to read her own memoir aloud, and one of the five people who wrote about it sized the job up by counting pages instead. Timothy Lee expected a doorstop, found something under three hundred pages when other wrestlers' autobiographies run to nearly double that, and concluded the whole thing could be finished in an afternoon. On the audiobook the measurement is a full working day of listening, which is the first of several places where this page and its reviewers are describing different objects.

What We Made of It

AJ Lee was a WWE superstar; A. J. Mendez is the name on the byline, and the book is about the distance between those two facts. The publisher's copy lays out the childhood first: a family working through drug addiction, poverty and mental illness, and a quiet girl trying to act normal while feeling anything but, escaping into comic books and video games. Then comes the discovery that superheroes could be real, which in this telling means professional wrestling, and years of training toward a career in it.

The framing device is a list of twelve words in capitals, the labels the copy says were handed to her as weaknesses: SHORT, NERDY, SKINNY, WEAK, IMPULSIVE, UGLY, TOMBOY, POOR, REBEL, LOUD, FREAK, CRAZY. Her argument inverts the list: she became successful because of those words, and the copy is explicit that it did not happen in spite of them. The wrestling section carries its own conflict, with industry pressure to play the damsel in distress and dress more provocatively for male fans, and an alter ego built in response that the copy describes as nerdy, enthusiastic and a little bit crazy.

The author field and the narration field on this listing hold the same name, and for this particular book that is not a small detail. A memoir whose central subject is being told to perform a version of yourself for other people gains something specific when the person doing the telling is also the person doing the reading. Julie Klam, quoted on the page as the bestselling author of Friendkeeping, calls the book "at once breathtakingly honest, hilariously funny, self-deprecating, and incredibly inspiring", and three of those four adjectives are things a voice can either deliver or lose.

The Best Parts of Crazy Is My Superpower

Lisa G. describes the newcomer's route in: a love of professional wrestling picked up a couple of years ago, no idea who AJ Lee was until a recent return to the ring, then this book. That path matters because it tells you the memoir does not assume you followed the promotion. You are not required to know a single match to follow the story it tells about a family, a diagnosis and a job that happens to involve a ring.

Alexander von der Linden makes the sharpest case, and it is a warning as much as a recommendation. This is not the tell-all about her time in the WWE, and not a compendium of wrestling anecdotes; it is an in-depth look at how upbringing and mental illness can shape a person's life, written in a conversational tone that bounces around. Anyone buying eight hours expecting backstage gossip is buying the wrong thing, and anyone buying it for the mental-health writing is buying exactly the right one.

Jason Robert Bink reports laughing out loud within the first few pages and then repeatedly, alongside sad passages about growing up with mental illness in the family and a period of homelessness. That tonal swing is where self-narration earns its keep in principle: comic timing and grief have to live in the same voice, and the person who wrote both is the one delivering them. What that sounds like in practice is not documented anywhere on this listing, so the credit is a reason for optimism rather than a guarantee.

What Might Not Land

One number here is simply broken. The badge shows 4.8 while the vote counter beside it shows 1, and a single whole-star vote can only ever display as a whole star. Underneath, five written responses are visible and every one of them carries a five-star grade, so every readable opinion sits above the average being advertised. The reviews are real and consistent; the average is not describing them.

Pacing is the one substantive criticism available, and it arrives in print units. Jason Robert Bink puts the first real wrestling talk at about a hundred and sixty pages in, and Timothy Lee measured the whole book at under three hundred, so the career arrives past the midpoint. That reviewer treats the delay as a feature. Buyers whose interest is the WWE and only the WWE should work out in advance which book they actually want, because the first several hours belong to the memoir.

The filing is odd enough to mention. A memoir about bipolar disorder, poverty and a family in crisis sits under sports and outdoors with a Combat Sports and Self-Defense tag, which is accurate about the day job and misleading about the content. Treat the categories as a shelving decision, never as a description, and go in prepared for material on addiction, mental illness and homelessness handled with humor but not softened.

Who Should Listen to Crazy Is My Superpower

If you want a mental-health memoir with jokes in it, this is the one, and the same applies to anyone who has been handed a list of things wrong with them and would like to hear a career built out of that list. Wrestling fans get their material too, later than they might expect. Households where a teenager is working out what a diagnosis means will find the tone approachable and the honesty unusual for a celebrity book.

Shoppers after locker-room stories should pass, and anyone who needs a memoir to stay light should know the childhood chapters do not. Buyers who care about production polish will find no information on this page beyond the running time and a name that also appears on the cover. The memoir's own voice reading its own worst days is the strongest argument this listing makes, and it is the only argument the credit can actually support.

Key Details

  • Read by: A. J. Mendez reads her own book, so the author field and the narration credit carry the same name across eight hours and eleven minutes.
  • At its heart: Bipolar disorder, family addiction and poverty, professional wrestling, self-acceptance.
  • Vibe: Funny and raw by turns, confessional without self-pity.
  • Short version: Recommended for the mental-health writing first and the WWE material second, which is the order the book itself uses.

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What Listeners Are Saying

★★★★★

Incredible. Inspiring. Just read it!

This book is incredible. I discovered a love for professional wrestling a couple years ago, but I didn't know who AJ Lee was until her recent return to the ring. I am so glad she opened up about her struggles with mental illness and made that return so I had...

- Lisa G.
★★★★★

Great Book

This is a very good read if you like AJ you will love this book what a great story you willenjoy this book very much😊😊

- Billy Triglia
★★★★★

An Empowering Read for women, those dealing with mental illness, and for those who support them

Before cracking this book open, I honestly thought about quickly reading and returning it. I had always been a fan of AJ Lee when she was in the WWE, so I really wanted to read her book. However, I was surprised that it was less than 300 pages while several...

- Timothy Lee
★★★★★

Fantastic read

I love AJ even more now. This book is one of the most entertaining WWE biographies I have read. It had me laughing out loud after three pages. That reaction was repeated many times. On the other hand, there were many sad moments hearing about how she grew up and...

- Jason Robert Bink
★★★★★

Unexpected but thoroughly Enjoyed

This isn't the book I expected it to be. This isn't a tell-all book about her time in the WWE, or even a compendium of wrestling anecdotes. This is more an in-depth look at how upbringing and mental illness can shape a person's life. A.J.'s life had the capacity to...

- Alexander von der Linden

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