Conundrum
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Conundrum by Jan Morris | Audiobook Review

By Jan Morris

Narrated by Roy McMillan

🎧 5 hours and 12 minutes 📘 Ukemi Audiobooks from W. F. Howes Ltd 📅 May 25, 2017 🌐 English

About This Audiobook

This remarkable memoir is the classic account of the transgender journey. It is all the more extraordinary because it is the life story of a figure who, it seemed, seamlessly and publicly charted a course through the English establishment - James Morris, outstanding journalist, historian and travel writer, famed for a peerless writing style. But all the while he was concealing a very different inner world: from the age of four he felt that, despite his body, he was really a girl.

Determined to be true to an undeniable inner impulse, James Morris, in his 40s, became Jan Morris. It was the 1970s, a time and culture far from our 21st century, where such matters have now become commonplace. What was it that impelled him to take such a frightening and irrevocable step? He faced the mental and physical challenges - the operation had to be done in Morocco and, as a well-known figure, attention from the world media could not be avoided. What pressures would that put on the family - a loving wife and growing children living in a North Wales village? But that inner impulse could not be denied.

Jan Morris tells the story in a clear and honest manner, without a trace of sentimentality or sensationalism. She recounts the emotional, physical, sexual and social issues that abound on such a journey in detail and, through this highly personal memoir, presents a memorable insight into the 'conundrum'. Jan is modest by nature, and it is only by implication that one becomes aware of the immense courage and integrity needed to see the transition through.

This is a deeply moving, beautifully written, unforgettable memoir. Sensational - yes, in a quiet way. Revealing - yes; no punches are pulled. But in the end, it is humane and uplifting.

Jan Morris, now in her 90s, has written a new introduction for this recording. Roy McMillan has recorded Morris' major historical work, the Pax Britannica trilogy (available on Audible), and is the ideal reader for Conundrum.

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  • Narrator: Roy McMillan, previously trusted with Jan Morris's Pax Britannica trilogy, is singled out by name in the write-up as suited to this material.
  • Subjects: identity concealed across a public career, transition in the 1970s, marriage and family reshaped rather than ended.
  • Tone: Measured, literary, and reflective rather than confessional.
  • Bottom line: Context and craft matter more here than a contemporary feel, and this historically significant memoir delivers both in full.

Publisher descriptions rarely vouch for their own narrator by name, but the write-up behind this Conundrum audiobook does exactly that: Roy McMillan already recorded Jan Morris's Pax Britannica trilogy, and the copy calls that same narrator the ideal reader for this memoir specifically. That is a stronger endorsement than almost anything else on this page, reviews included.

A PBS Appearance, Then a Private Search

Two names for one life is the shape the write-up traces here. James Morris built a public career as a journalist, historian, and travel writer known for a peerless style, all while concealing, from the age of four, a conviction that ran against everything the body seemed to confirm. In his 40s, James Morris became Jan Morris, and the write-up follows what came next still largely in that same voice: he faced the mental and physical demands of an operation that had to be performed abroad in Morocco, and, as a recognizable public figure, could not avoid the attention of the world's press. What that meant for a loving wife and growing children in a North Wales village is posed as an open question the memoir itself has to answer. Jan Morris tells that fuller story, the write-up says, in a clear and honest manner, without a trace of sentimentality, and the book that results is described there as sensational in a quiet way and revealing without pulling punches, while still landing, in its own words, as humane and uplifting rather than sensational for its own sake. Rita Review's account of discovering this book starts nowhere near the actual prose: a chance appearance on a PBS history program, a presence so well spoken that the reviewer genuinely could not tell whether the person on screen was male or female, followed by a private search online for a biography that turned up this memoir by name. Only after ordering the book with little other information did the actual reading begin, and Rita Review calls Jan Morris a wonderful writer once there, a compelling storyteller whose observations about ordinary things are, in that reviewer's own words, beautifully stated, with humor, pathos, and clarity all present in the same account.

An Ascent of Everest Alongside Mallory in 1953

Beyond the narrator's own credentials, the write-up notes that Jan Morris, now in her 90s at the time of this recording, wrote a new introduction specifically for it, a late, direct hand on a project already decades removed from the memoir's original publication. Fyrecurl's review adds specific texture the summary itself does not, mentioning an ascent of Mount Everest alongside Mallory in 1953 as part of the life Morris lived before the transition described here, and calling the writing a flight of fanciful prose fit for an Oxford graduate. John A. Sorrentino's review is the most direct about purpose, calling this a must-read for anyone wishing to trade shallow, uneducated judgment of the subject for informed understanding instead, a short review that argues for the book's usefulness more than its style. Between Rita Review's discovery through television, Fyrecurl's attention to the subject's earlier career, and Sorrentino's case for the book as a corrective to bad assumptions, three very different doors lead readers to the same memoir.

A 4.4 From a Single Counted Vote

Three of the five reviews here carry dates well before this particular Ukemi Audiobooks recording existed, from 2012 to 2015, which suggests at least some of this feedback was written about earlier editions of a memoir originally built around a transition the write-up dates to the 1970s, rather than about this specific 2017 release. Jason M mullan's short, five-star review is about a parcel rather than a performance, a book that arrived in lovely shape for its age. The most useful dissent on this page comes from a reviewer identified only as Some dude, who found the book well written but genuinely dated, the author's era-bound viewpoints landing as quaint and old-fashioned to a modern reader, forgivable as a product of its time but still slightly off-putting, and who names a different, easier-to-relate-to book, Donna Rose's Wrapped In Blue, as a comparison point. Do the arithmetic on the star rating and you hit a wall almost immediately: the badge reads 4.4, sourced from what the counter insists is a single vote, a claim the page itself undercuts by displaying five full reviews just below.

A Peerless Stylist Narrating Her Own Reckoning

Readers drawn to LGBTQ+ history, travel writing, or memoir written by someone already established as a stylist before the story being told was ever public, will find a rare case here where the narrator's own credentials are part of the pitch rather than an afterthought. Roy McMillan's history with Morris's other major work is not proof of anything by itself, but it is a more concrete signal than this catalog usually offers. Skip this one if a memoir written from a very different cultural moment, decades removed from current conversations about transition, needs to feel contemporary to hold your attention, since at least one reviewer here found that gap genuinely limiting rather than merely dated. For everyone else, a peerless prose stylist narrating her own reckoning, read by someone the publisher trusted enough to name specifically, is a rare combination on this catalog. At five hours and twelve minutes, it is also a relatively compact listen for a life this eventful, journalism and mountaineering and a public transition all fitting inside a single afternoon's worth of audio, which makes the earlier caution about dated framing easier to test for yourself before committing to anything longer.

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What Listeners Are Saying

★★★★★

A Great Read

Saw the author on a history show on PBS. She was so well spoken. She had an androgynous appearance as so many older woman can have but in this case we weren't sure whether she was male or female, so I Googled her bio. This book was mentioned. I ordered...

- Rita Review
★★★★☆

A translucent and intellectual transsexual experience. A memoir by a pioneer of an early sex-change in the 1970s.

A soldier and correspondent, who once climbed Mount Everest with Mallory in 1953, changes his sex twenty years later and explains transsexualism in a flight of fanciful prose fit for an Oxford graduate. Jan Morris resigns from a successful male life to live out her days as a writer of...

- Fyrecurl
★★★★★

Good Stuff:)

Package came onto me. Book was in lovely shape for its age:)

- jason M mullan
★★★★★

Must Read

This is a must read for anyone wishing to balance shallow uneducated judgment of the transsexual conundrum with informed understanding.

- John A. Sorrentino
★★★☆☆

It's a fine book and written very well

It's a fine book and written very well, but it is kind of dated and hard to relate to the modern experience. Because of the author's age many of the viewpoints expressed seemed really "quaint" and "old fashioned". This is of course forgivable as a product of her time, but...

- Some dude

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