Conscious Decisions of the Heart
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Conscious Decisions of the Heart by John Wiltshire | Audiobook Review

Part of More Heat Than The Sun #2

By John Wiltshire

Narrated by Gary Furlong

🎧 9 hours and 48 minutes 📘 Decent Fellows Press 📅 March 5, 2021 🌐 English

About This Audiobook

Ben Rider and Nikolas Mikkelsen learn that danger comes in all shapes and sizes and often in places you least expect it. Nikolas' dark past calls to him, inexorably dragging him back into its seductive embrace.

While he goes on an errand of mercy to Russia, Ben travels to Denmark to learn Nikolas's language. Convinced Russia's vastness will swallow Nikolas, Ben doesn't see the enemy much closer to home. Thinking he has lost Nikolas, Ben then makes a terrible decision that threatens to destroy everything they have together.

Focused on this very personal horror, bound by a new level of commitment, they have no idea that a greater threat is coming. And when it arrives, it changes everything - even the definition of commitment.

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The Short Version

  • Performance: A single-voice production from a small independent press, with no cast listed and no content advisory anywhere on the page.
  • What it covers: A guarded couple under external threat, loyalty tested by distance, violence carried over from two military pasts
  • Feel: Tense, intimate and frequently bleak
  • Our call: An excellent second act for series readers, and a poor place for anyone to meet Ben and Nikolas for the first time.

Ben Rider goes to Denmark to learn a language while Nikolas Mikkelsen goes to Russia on an errand of mercy, and the distance between those two countries drives this audiobook. The description is blunt about what follows: convinced that Russia's vastness will swallow his partner, Ben misses the enemy standing much closer to home, and then, believing Nikolas is gone, makes a decision that threatens everything the two of them have built. Second in a series, a shade under ten hours, and a product page that never tells you what the first book is called.

Ben and Nikolas Treat the Relationship as Unstable

Posting in March 2015 at the top grade, lala-lately calls Ben and Nikolas two of the best written men in that reviewer's experience and rates the series above Cut and Run as the closest comparison in m/m fiction. The same response lists what these books actually run on: witty believable dialogue, emotional intensity, crazy amounts of action, suspense and intrigue, and settings scattered right across the globe. That inventory is accurate, and it explains why this sits on a suspense shelf rather than a romance one.

Wiltshire writes the relationship as the unstable element rather than the reward. Nikolas has a dark past that keeps calling him back into what the copy names a seductive embrace, Ben has enough soldier left in him to answer violence with violence, and the plot separates the two repeatedly so that their assumptions about each other can curdle. What comes out of that is suspense with an emotional core, not romance with action bolted on, and the difference shows in how much of the book the couple spends apart.

Newcomers should understand how much backstory gets assumed. Ben's history in black operations and Nikolas's military past are both treated as settled facts, and the story opens with the pair already committed to each other. The description's closing promise, that a greater threat arrives and changes even the definition of commitment, only lands with force if you already know what that commitment cost them earlier in the run.

Gary Furlong Keeps Both Origins Distinct for Ten Hours

The July 2015 five-star gets the genre label right where the page does not, calling this a second entry in an m/m action-suspense-romance series, best taken from the beginning, though the endings of individual books are satisfying enough on their own. That is the fairest account of how the series works. You can start here and follow events perfectly well, and what you will lose is the accumulated weight of everything the two men have already survived together.

Gary Furlong carries a two-hander in which nationality is plot. One lead spends the book learning the other's language, the other's past is scattered between Russia and Denmark, and the supporting cast turns up wherever the story travels next. A single credit has to keep those origins distinguishable for nearly ten hours without turning the thing into an accent parade. Sample a scene with both leads talking, because the emotional register of this series lives entirely in how the two voices differ under pressure.

Audio also solves a problem this genre has on the page. The books are long, the action sequences are dense, and the emotional beats depend on tone rather than on what gets said out loud. A line delivered flatly rather than warmly does more work in one second than a paragraph of interior monologue manages in print, which is a large part of why m/m suspense tends to reward the format when the casting is right.

Redundant Sex Scenes Rarely Move the Plot

Writing in February 2016 at four stars, Dave Shumway files the only reservation on the page, and it is admirably specific: the storytelling is strong and the people are complicated, but the sex scenes turn redundant quickly and rarely move plot or character development along. In audio that observation carries extra weight, since you cannot skim a scene the way you can on paper without losing your place entirely. Take it as the heat warning this listing declines to provide.

Classification is where this record genuinely misleads. The entry sits under an LGBTQ heading with a mystery, thriller and suspense tag and no romance tag anywhere, while every written response describes a romance running straight through an action plot. The series line announces a second entry without naming the first, so a buyer who wants to begin in the right place has to reconstruct the order from the responses rather than from the page. Neither failure is the book's fault, and both cost a shopper time.

The pool itself needs reading with care. Five written responses sit beneath 135 ratings, and the newest of them was filed more than four years before this recording was published, so not one of those grades could have taken the audio into account. One of them, entered from the German market in April 2016, arrives in the strained English of an automatic translation, praising the icy north and the tropics and describing the series as high addictive. The enthusiasm survives translation; the detail does not.

Find the First Book Before This One's Twist

Series readers who finished the opening book and want the twist people keep mentioning are the obvious audience, and a December 2016 five-star promises exactly that, calling this volume the holder of one of the top twists in the whole run and telling newcomers to begin with Love is a Stranger. Listeners who want suspense with real emotional stakes, and who have no interest in seeing the romance sanitized, will get precisely what they came for here.

Anyone who wants a procedural will feel the mismatch immediately. Plot logic bends toward the relationship, coincidence does some heavy lifting, and the antagonists exist to endanger a couple rather than to be solved. Anyone shopping for low heat should look at something else, because the single dissenting grade on this page is specifically about how much room the intimate scenes take up, and the format gives you no graceful way to jump ahead.

A long evening with these two is a strong sit if you have already met them, and a bewildering one if you have not. My advice is the least glamorous kind available: find the first book, start there, then return to this one afterward. The material rewards the detour, and this page does so little to guide a newcomer that arranging the detour falls entirely to you.

Can I begin the series with this audiobook, or do I need the first book?

Begin with the first. This one opens on a couple already deep into a relationship whose cost is treated as established, and the closing threat only registers if you know what the two of them survived to reach it. Followable cold, certainly, but a good share of the emotional payoff will pass you by.

How explicit does the audiobook get?

Explicit enough that it matters when skipping ahead is clumsy. The listing carries no content advisory of any kind, and the series is written as adult m/m suspense with the relationship at its center, so assume scenes played out in full rather than a discreet cut, and buy on that basis.

Is this audiobook a fair introduction for listeners new to m/m suspense?

It can work, provided you accept the conventions. The series pairs a former soldier with a man whose past keeps dragging him backward, and the appeal lies in watching two guarded people fail to explain themselves. Anyone arriving from mainstream thrillers should expect the relationship to steer the plot rather than decorate it.

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What Listeners Are Saying

★★★★★

Excellent Continuation of Ben and Nik's story

This volume of More Heat than the Sun series has one of the top twists of the whole series. Make sure you start with Love is a Stranger, the first in the series.In Conscious Decisions of the Heart, we again have Ben, black haired green eyed exotic beauty, with his...

- WMDreader
★★★★☆

Great plots lines

Tells great stories. Complicated people in complicated relationship. Sex scenes get quickly redundant and don't very often move the plot or character development along. Plot lines are complicated and at times unpredicable.

- Dave Shumway
★★★★★

Best so far

Ben and Nikolas are two of the best written men I've read, and I've loved each book in this series. As far as reading enjoyment goes, they've far surpassed anything written in the Cut and Run series, which is probably the closest comparison in the m/m fiction genre.This series consistently...

- lala-lately
★★★★★

Love and Passion Amidst Violence and Darkness

Second in a fantastic m/m action-suspense-romance series. Read from the beginning, as everything continues, although the endings of each book are satisfying enough.Ben and Nikolas are not your typical couple. They have dark pasts, with Nikolas' being particularly grim and convoluted, but Ben's time doing black ops not being all...

- April
★★★★★

I loved it so much

What can I say ...I loved it so much!Tension, excitement, more stress, and Nik and Ben's relationship is continually developing. It's nice to witness this. And I need to know how to proceed.We were with our boys in the icy north and in the tropics. We experienced love and so...

- Ich und Frau Schmidt

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